06.02.2010

Today me so tired because i had to join the school marching competition and swimming training class of my BB company!Today, when i'm in complex..i'm the GB..but when i out then i'm the BB...hahaha!feel so funny and complicated!hahaha...now, me look like a malay girl..zzz=.= because i'm stand under the sun when i'm marching with two hours!haih..sad=(
Finally, we all GB are happy becae we are won in sport day...hahahaha!=p
and thanks god to blessing we all..

and my company problem are getting start...haih!make me suffer again...OMG!

31.01,2010

THIS IS CHONGS' FAMILY..NOTHING CAN LET ME MEMORIES AND I WANT TO LEAVE OF THIS TYPE OF FAMILY BECAUSE THIS FAMILY NOT A PROPERLY FAMILY..IT IS MAKE ME THINKING IN NEGATIVE WAY AND FORCE ME GO TO NEGATIVE WAY..THEY ARE SAYING ME EASY TO GET ANGRY...BUT HOW THEY TREAT ME..SUDDENLY SHOUT THERE..DUMB FATHER CANT TALK OR ASK ME IN GOOD WAY..IS IT HARD FOR YOU?NEED USE SHOUT TO ME..I HATE THIS FAMILY..NO MORE HAPPY MEMORIES AND NO MORE REASON TO LET ME WALK WITH MY LIFE WITH IT...I REALLY HATE..HATE UNTIL I WANT TO ALONE!I HOPE I DONT HAVE THIS TYPE OF FAMILY..I HATE THIS FAMILY MUCHIE!I DONT KNOW WHY JESUS ARE SET ME IN THIS FAMILY..WHEN YOU ARE SHOUTING TO SCOLD ME..I'M FEEL HOPELESS IN THIS FAMILY..THEY ARE DONT KNOW WHAT WE WANT JUST KNOW HOW TO SCOLD HIS/HER SON/DAUGHTER...WHY STILL GOT THIS SUCK FAMILY IN THIS WORLD...JUST A LITTLE BIT THING THEN WANT TO SLAP ME..IF LIKE THAT TO TREAT AS TO ME..THEN I HOPE TO MY PARENTS DONT BORN ME TO THIS WORLD...BECAUSE I DONT HOPE HAVE THIS SUCH PARENTS....YOU ARE LET ME THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE...I WILL NOT DO IT BECAUSE IT IS STUPID ACT....I SOSOSOSOSOSO HATE THIS FAMILY..I HOPE I CAN GONE FROM THIS FAMILY........I'M GETTING HURT BUT NOT GETTING ANY HAPPY IN THIS FAMILY...NOT ONLY TODAY..IT IS MAKE ME SUFFER AND STRESSFUL...YOU ALL ARE MAKING ME THINKING IN NEGATIVE WAY...HAIH!FINALLY, I KNOW MY PARENTS IS LIKE THAT..SO I WANT TO 'SABAR' UNTIL WHEN THEY ARE GONE....MY MOTHER STILL TREAT ME AS HER DAUGHTER...BUT MY FATHER TREAT ME AS HIS RUBBISH...ME ALSO GOT FEELING FOR EMOTION...WHY ALWAYS KEEP SCOLDING ME...WTH WITH THIS FAMILY...I REALLY FEEL SO REGRET WHY AM I BORN IN THIS FAMILY...AND I SO DISAPPOINTED IN THIS FAMILY.CONCLUSION IS I HATE THIS FAMILY MUCHIE...AND FOREVER...!

19.01.2010

Today me totally angry until me dont have mood to eat breakfast...and first time i been ask to 'DIAM' feel bit sad...and i dont think that he is playing with me..i think he is serious to me..T_T...

My friend's leg are getting well now, thanks God to bless her..haha!and anyways, today my heart keep feel uncomfortable, i keep feel that i'll got a accident but dont know when and where..i keep worry about it..and i hope i dont want those happen that thing, it will not happen in front of me..whatever, i also dont want my those friendship with you guys are break..soory to those that i scold him/her..and i really angry for today..

MY MOOD ARE FUCKING DAMN BAD FOR TODAY
HOPE GOD ARE BLESSING ME ALL THE WAY WHEN I WAS IN KL...AND I HOPE THAT WHEN I BACK TO SDK, I HOPE ALL STILL WAS LIKE BEFORE...=)
THANKS GOD AND AMEN!!

17.01.2010

after in pub, me about 3.45am like that back to my sweet home..so tired for it..and feel some faint..after i clean myself then automatic lay down on the bed and sleep until morning7.45am like that..my F*cking sister ask me to wake up because she need to tidy up the bed..

after that i go eat breakfast with my parents..then shopping with them..like 11am like that..they go salon for colouring their hair and me be a dumb ass there and sitting on the sofa waiting for them...after that, my mummy go buy some egg tart to eat..dont know why she buy so much..buy ten like that..(@.@)when back home then my neighbour ask us go his home eat lunch for party then just only my parents go for that..because i lazy to go and feel so sleepy and lazy...hahaha!

last night really so syok for me..totally one word 'SYOK'...keep take picture..keep shout in pub..keep dance there, drink and smoke...i think more sot in that pub is our table..haha!like 12.45am like that, some of them starting drunk already but me just only bit faint..haha(^.^)most unlucky is Sheeta because her leg are terseliuh and swollen already..haih(T_T)...feel some pitiful for her..(T_T)because she is drunk already...and that dorothy...and my leg are get wound from that nicholas's house durian..T_Tmake my leg get wound and pain!(T_T)most spoil is...the weather and friend's mood!haih...the weather keep raining and friend's mood like something wrong..(@.@)finally, we all also with God's blessing(P/S:because no checking and no accident for drive because driver also got drink much beer!) and peaceful(P/S:dont have give parents to scold) to back home..haha!

15.01.2010

我和他分手了！
就是因为她…所以我和他就成为兄妹了！
这个世界真的很现实！
谁能抱下我？如果你能就会知道我有多累…我真的希望抱我的是你！
我还是很爱你~怎样才能忘记你呢？唉… =（

08.01.2010

my form 4's study life feel quite busy and tired..I'm always busy in my homework..sometime dont know how to do so..zzz...commerce?!..when i concentrate in class, make me so sleepy but cant sleep...because teacher will ask us go basketball court for stand his or her's class whole period...all teacher are crazy..and the SPM paper...all also essay!OMG~i most hate this...need me to write long sentences...zzz!...hoam~so sleepy now..what wrong with me..last time me will not so early sleep one..zzz!ar~~~so stressful in study life now..add math, prinsip perakaunan, ekonomi asas, geography and others....OMG!so many subject need me to effort it..T_T

30.12.2009

今天是最后的第二天，我觉得很闷，也觉得很烦…烦着明天怎样倒数！
他们全部这是在乎拍照等，根本没有理到有没有车等的…我很讨厌他们这样！
一讲到这个，全部都假装不知道或是才知道。
真是的！他们全部都大啦，还不知道什么是安全吗？
唉~~！快给他们气晕！唉！我真的给他们弄到我不想出去倒数了！讨厌~:'(


下午时，去游泳！今天蛮晒得！我的皮肤又黑了！
唉~~真的有点闷！
今天为什么全部人都像没有脑袋似的！真的逼到我骂粗口才甘愿！
真的很讨厌！啊~~~

唉！